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Uh...What?

Hookwinked. Bamboozled. Run amuck. This is the sum total of my feelings right now.

After weeks of complete foolishness from the man I love -- known here as New Boo -- I finally got an answer to the question: "What the hell is wrong with you?"

He's scared.

This man who convinced me that he loved me -- no easy feat, mind you. Convinced me that we should live together. Convinced me that I could dream about love, children, and family again. That fool told me, "Maybe we just moved too fast..."

Are you kidding me? You get me out here in Emotionville...where I -- for once -- let me feelings lead me...and you tell me that you're scared? That we moved too fast?

He's full of shit.

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