I would give anything to be loved. I would give anything to be the object of someone's affection. I would do my level best just for someone to care about me. I really would. Right now, I am so broken...so wounded...so hurt. I feel like no matter what happens with me, I never can seem to make the connection that brings me to where love finds me. And while I try to make it look like it doesn't matter to me, it so does. It's all I ever think about. And I try my very best not to be consumed by my pain. Most times it works. But sometimes I get here...where I just want to be loved. Inasmuch as I'd never kill myself, I know why people do it. It's hard to live a loveless life. But here I stand. I am trying to hold it together. I really am. IT IS NOT EASY. AND I HATE IT HERE.
Sometimes a girl needs to get her thoughts on paper so she can see what's really going on.