Why don't hearts do what you want? You'd THINK my heart would be on board with someone who wants to love me. But no...my heart wants to revisit the past.
New Boo wants to see me. I want to see him. Ugh.
I have no business seeing him. I know that seeing him won't solve anything. I know that. And yet...
I want to see him SO bad. I know without a doubt that no good can come from it. I don't know if I'll be so disgusted that I start kicking him, or if I'll just dissolve into a puddle of tears. I don't know what would happen.
I've worked so hard to be whole. I don't know that it's worth it for me to risk becoming undone again.
Of course, none of this would be an issue if things were better between me and My Teddy Bear.
That fool doesn't realize just how close he is to being single. I am TIRED of being with a man who thinks sex is optional. I do NOT appreciate it.
I saw a blog today from a divorced guy who's sharing his story to keep other people from getting divorced. Almost everything he talks about applies to MTB. It was almost creepy how similar they are. Check it out here.
Right now...I'm just trying to figure out my life.
7 years ago