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He Finally Said It...

We had just picked up our dinner. As I was unpacking everything to see if it was all in place, I noticed something missing. I turned to him and said, "Babe, I think they forgot your dressing." He wasn't phased at all, saying, "Oh, they probably put it on the salad." Sure enough, upon further examination, it was. I put on my tough-girl persona and playfully told him that I'd go up there and rough 'em up if they'd messed up his food. He laughed and said, "I love you!"

To say I was outdone would be an understatement. Here we are playing around, and he says the three most important words in the English language. Since I wasn't sure if he was being serious, I just decided to be cool about it. I gave him a hug, kissed him on the cheek, and said, "I love you, too."

Now I'm wondering if I handled it the right way. What if he really was just playing? Then I've shown my hand. If he was serious, I may have understated the moment and played it too cool. I'm reminded of Billy Joel's song, Leave a Tender Moment Alone.

Even though I'm in love,
Sometimes I get so afraid.
I'll say something so wrong,
Just to have something to say.

I know the moment isn't right
To tell the girl a comical line
To keep the conversation light
I guess I'm just frightened out of my mind.

But if that's how I feel
Then it's the best feeling I've even known
It's undeniably real
Leave a tender moment alone
I'm not quite sure how I need to proceed, but I do know that I love this man. And I hope he feels the same way...


HE LOVE YOU? FA'REAL DOE??? aww Shuck E. Ducky!!!Datz so sweet. I'm fixing ta cry as soon as I try on my waterproof mascara to see if it works...........
Aww MAAN HOMEY!!!! Datz alright?
we coming to Cali soon? and if so can you make all the arrangments around Jordan's graduation so I can just make one trip? LMAO

I'm soooooooooo happy for ya shugga!
Mo said…
O.k. so you want me to scream like I lost my mind... I am loving the progression of likeness to love you to WOW... how did this happen! I think that I am gonna have to put my weight loss plan into TURBO!

B E A U T I F U L ~~~~~~~~~~~~
Robin said…
this is how it should be. Your relationshio has progressed in a beautiful way and it makes me believe in love again. thats as mushy as you get me! Now go and make my money!!!!!!!!!LMAO!

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