Excerpts from the Diary of a Diva

Things may be going crazy at my job, but I can honestly say that my love life is better than ever. My Teddy Bear is making me believe in love again. After New Boo, I wasn't sure that I could actually give my heart away. MTB is changing that slowly but surely. And he's not doing it in a crazy, passionate way. His is more methodical and very different from what I'm used to. This weekend, we went to a surprise party for his best friend. It was my debut into polite society, or as I like to call it, my time as the speckled pup at the dog & pony show. And when I say he took me around and introduced me to everyone as his girlfriend, I only say it because it's true. What I loved is that they were so happy for him. One of his aunts almost cried. Later that night, we were at karaoke when he told me that I was a big hit with his people. He was so happy, and it showed. And that made me happy, too. I don't know what the future holds for us, but I know that he'll ...

There are so many times when I question myself. Today is one of those days. I actually had a great day. I worked overtime to make a great paleo meal -- chicken spaghetti. Even though I have to write tonight, I took time out to make this healthy meal because I'm trying to commit to laying aside this weight. And it came out good -- much better than I thought it would. I was proud of myself. The plan had been to go to an industry event tomorrow with a couple of friends. While I'm kinda over it, my friends were excited to go. I was excited for them, and I knew I'd have fun. So why was the party tonight instead of tomorrow? To be clear, I'm known to be forgetful. I get things wrong all the time. But this time, I made sure I asked. Twice. And I was told that the party was Thursday. So why did I get a periscope notification from the party? When I asked my friend about it, she was sick because she's one of the few people who seem to be on my side. She didn't kno...